Last night I decided to watch Twilight. I had intended to watch only a few minutes of the movie while I unwind to get ready for bed, as I've heard from some friends that it's not a particularly good movie—they said that there's nothing special in it. Unfortunately, my curiosity got the better of me and I ended up watching the whole movie. By the time I got into bed, it was almost midnight.
When the alarm clock rang at 5am this morning, I had to drag myself out of bed. I was still feeling tired and sleepy, but I had to go for my long run at the Likas jogging track. And today, according to the training programme, I had to do 20km.
At times like this morning, I felt like giving my long run a miss. It's not like I'm aiming for a big prize money or fame. In fact, if I can finish the 42km on October 11, I'd be getting a finisher medal and probably a T-shirt with some fancy words on it so that I can boast to some friends that I've run the marathon. It seems like so much agony to go through for such a small returns. The training can be quite punishing most of the time, and each time I do the long run I really have to struggle to complete it!
This will be my very first full marathon, and I don't know if I am ever gonna do it again if I can conquer it this time round. I suppose if my body allows me, I will keep it going. It's a great challenge and it's just not like me to give up so easily. If I must, I will limp or crawl to the finish line.
I bumped into an old school mate this morning at the jogging track shortly after I completed my 20km. I hadn't seen him in ages. He was doing his brisk walking together with his kids. We started talking about the good 'ol days in school and then we finally talked about the inevitable subject—that I'm running my first full marathon this year. He gave me that look, if you know what I mean.
He said, "Cornelius, you should realise that you are not young any more. You're, what, in your mid-forties now? It's not such a good idea to pick up this marathon thing at this age. If you must try, you should've done it years ago." And then he added, "You should learn to know your limitations at your age."
Well, I suppose he has a point there. Obviously I can't compare myself to those teenagers who never seem to run out of energy for this kind of activities. And I have nothing to prove, really. Who knows, I might just drop dead from exhaustion one of these days.